my uncle died on christmas eve morning. diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer in May of this year, the cancer rapidly spread, unphased by any treatments he was receiving.
my mother kept telling me to call him over the past few months and i never did. i thought there was more time. on december 22nd, my mother called me and told me that uncle paul was going to hospice on christmas eve, and that i should consider coming to see him, or call him. what do you say to someone that is going to die?
i began writing him a letter, to soothe my mind and to tell him all the things i wanted to tell him.

he died before he could even go to hospice.
my dad called me as he was driving my uncle's car back to their house.
i never got to tell him anything at all. not goodbye or i love you. not thank you for being the most wonderful uncle ive had. not even sorry that we grew distant as you and aunt eileen retired to florida.

rest in peace, john paul thompson.

i wonder:
is 11:30 am too early to eat homemade guacamole?
what should i buy with the Christmas money my dad gave me?