dictionary

i have forgotten my dictionary.
i've forgotten whether: it was in my possetion at the time of dissappearance; if it was French/English or Miriam-Webster; how thin the pages were;if it told me the meanings of anything, everything.
I've forgotten how to read; what the alphabet means; the arrested fluidity of the ink; the color black; the space the dictionary occupied and the space that it did not (most importantly: the space it did not.)

since jena and i are surfin the dubdubdub for handsome men...

CASEY AFFLECK IN A TINY TUB!

xxoxoxo.

PISS

People of Dancefloors all over Buffalo:

Every morning after dancing, I notice something. FOOT BRUISES. Who out there is stomping their stilettos into my tender, pale, fragile foot top? Why should I be concerned about the delicate condition of the slender bones of my feet just because everyone rages out so hard? I know placing a blame is unfair, as I have, in my day, taken down people like a bowling ball on dancefloors. These bruises are placed upon the foot exactly where the nails went through Jesus. Now, maybe it's no fault of the heel-wearing ladies of la luna. Maybe I'm experiencing stigmata. Holy shit. Is that it? Is that what this is?!

Love and squalor,
Natalie

upon returning to her sister's side, education and boredom aplenty,
alice began to miss tea parties, the walrus and the carpenter, and even hedgehog/flamingo croquet.

was i ecstatic or dismal?
you decide.

OBTUSE OBTUSE OBTUSE OBTUSE.
bank accounts at age 30.
ACUTE ACUTE ACUTE ACUTE.
city:opportunity: punctuality: decadence.

too puddly for picnics and
too panicked for satisfaction.
i am peeling my finger tips down to the bone, i SWEAR; it's horrible and disgusting: i realize what I come from but you see I'm trying to CHANGE it without much success.
you gain the majority of your bad habits in the adolescent years.

I didn't drink coffee in high school = I didn't drink coffee in California.